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Hellooo !! After a looong time I have decided to write. Well all is well so far. I have been enjoying life post exams. I haven’t worked, studied, job hunted for an entire month and a half. And suddenly after an interview yesterday I think the job hunting kida has set in (yes I can picture a few friends smiling). I haven’t even started yet but I feel like it now.

For the first time now, I will be actually looking for a job, focusing on the actual work and the nature of the organisation as opposed to focusing on the package, timing and location earlier. For once I am looking for a job that needs me to use my brains and not come at a specific time, do something replaceable and go. Yes I know it’s said that “if you’re not replaceable you cannot be promoted” but, what I should be doing should make a difference. I know I’m still young and shouldn’t expect that much but I’m hoping I land somewhere close to such a thing.

I actually thought that after my exams, within a week – 10 days I’d be bored and start job hunting and probably join SALSA classes to keep myself busy and get in shape! But I have absolutely NO TIME! HAHA and I LOVE it! I haven’t socialized like that ever. Call me awara, rolu, whatever, you have to take out some time to just enjoy your life when you haven’t had a vacation in 3 years. I was pretty disappointed when my trip to Cochin was cancelled. Well its not worse than having the wedding being called off :s. I needed a vacation and couldn’t get one and that was getting to me. My dad wouldn’t let me travel alone even though I had friends where I wanted to go. But I think this long stay at home (hardly) has been like a vacation, ignoring the usual spats with my Grandma.

I must say, Salik wasn’t all that bad cuz the existence of the Business Bay bridge and the Floating bridge has helped. So in a way there are alternatives. Somehow I always see the way to the Shindaga tunnel blocked.

I’m in kind of a weird phase now. I don’t really have anything planned. For some reason, I don’t WANT to have plans. I know I’m probably just gonna feel like that as long as I have some dough on me. But I don’t really want to wait till it runs out.. cuz there’s nobody sitting there waiting for me to come and work with them.

I don’t know.. maybe its just the whole wait that has left me disappointed. I realizing now..from the last 10 years I’ve been waiting PATIENTLY for this phase to get over.. for the good stuff to begin. 10 FREAKING years now. 11 or 12 actually, but it took 1or 2 years for it to actually hit me (talking about my acute scoliosis here). I survived it, I am continuously grateful for the way I still turned out but I actually waited for a release. Waiting for the next period to begin. And it HAS ended. Only..I’m still left with the same me. Nothing really changed. Except that, I am definitely wiser, more confident and experienced. But I am physically the same. The part that I WANTED to or was HOPING for.. hasn’t changed. Its still a part of me, and always with me. And I knew it. Then why was I expecting or secretly hoping for it to go away? I keep telling everyone this is it. Nothing beyond this can be done. But somehow, resided inside me those wishes for it to go away and present myself ‘revamped’ in front of the world. A part of me, still does. I hope one day, I get over it. I think this was one of the things running on my mind when I wrote my previous entry.

Staying at home has given me enough time to finally get back to some reading. In the last 3-4 years, I read..what.. 2 books? Not that I’m reading so much now, but I plan/ hope to. In the past few years I’ve only been reading books for college, blogs, and random articles online. Hey, at least I kept my reading kida alive (yes, I use that word a lot). I’m so confused about what I like to read. There’s no particular genre I like. I stand in front of a selection of books for a good amount of time before I pick out something. But I know what I DON’T like! I hate romantic novels and lovey dovey stuff or series of mystery thrills. Even when I was younger, never read those Nancy Drews or Hardy boys.. even now.. I cant read a Daniel Steel or the like. Reading more than 3 books from the same author is like watching an Ekta Kapoor serial. You can say the dialogue before the character will.

Anyways, that all for now, bits and pieces of things on my mind. Will fill in, when I feel like next or when something important takes place. Adios

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