July 29, 2006
Torn between home? and home.I wrote this post some time ago, had forgotten about it...
Everytime I need to get out of my apartment, for anything, I need to make sure I’m looking Fine - something that really annoys my mom. The minute she asks me to go pick up something from someone waiting down, get some groceries or fetch something from the car, I have to either change into something sober or do my hair.
Well no, it isn’t a girly habit, its just because, every time I step out of the house I just have to meet someone I know. There are people all over this place that know me, and I’d be conscious if they saw me untidy or dressed like I just got out of bed.
The reverse happens when I go ‘back home’ (as many comparatively recent Indian expats refer to it as) to
Usually I walk my way to work – a fair 15 minute walk through Karama. On the way, I am waved at by some relative/ friend passing by in his/her car, smiled at by some shopkeepers whose stores I frequent since a child, greeted by some random persons I know, just growing up in this place.
Ever since I’ve discovered Google Earth, I’ve indulged myself in playing around marking places I know. It took me about 15 minutes to spot my house here in
So…..which is actually Home to me?
A place where I was born in, went the same school as both my parents did (yes, in Dubai), grew up, built an identity where people know me, a place I am familiar with or a place where I visit for a month once in 3-4 years?
A place where my entire family struggles to survive, has no definite future, a place we may have to leave any moment some Sheikh decides we must, or a place that we have an apartment of our own – for sure, a place where we don’t even have a telephone number, a place I could easily get lost, but always turn to if I had to.
Often asked this question “where’re you from?” I say ‘
It goes on.. I can’t justify when I say I’m from Dubai, even though I was born here and lived all my life and it’s the only place in the world I know best.
In
So do I have a place?
I feel appalled when something like the bomb blasts happen in Mumbai. I do have relatives and friends there, but somehow its not the only reason. People I know wouldn’t want to consider me as a ‘Mumbai-ite’, because I never lived there and don’t even know how to get from one place to another!
In
Thinking about all of this, my future, where I belong, writing this post, I feel all the more confused now. Since I’ve lost interest I don’t think I want to write about this anymore… so that’s it.
July 19, 2006
The Maha TagBEST:
1. Male friend: hmm.. dont know.
2. Female friend: Seema
3. Vacation: Khandala/Lonavla
WORST:
1. Time of day: 6:55 am (alarm)
2. Day of the week: Thursday. People always make plans and I'm so dead at the end of the week.
3. Color crayon: Crayons are messy.
LAST:
1. Person you talked to that goes/went to your school: Nabeel
2. Talked to on the phone: Nabeel
3. Text: Nabeel
4. Person who Instant Messaged: Gwenlyn
TODAY:
1. What are you doing now: Talking on the phone.
2. Wearing: Skirt and T-shirt
TOMORROW:
1. Is: Weekend!! Not so dead this thursday since I'm off from college.
2. Got any plans: Take all my old floppies and transfer their contents to a flash disk or the laptop.
3. Goal: not get upset with my grandmother.
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Dont have a fixed time to leave from work tommorow.
FAVORITE:
1. Number: you choose for me.
2. Song: Hotel California - Eagles
3. Color: Red.
CURRENTLY:
1. Missing Someone: No.
2. Mood: slightly bored.
3. Wanting: some warmth (ironic I know, but its damn chilly in this office!)
TRUE/FALSE:
I am a cuddler: True.
I am a morning person: False, unless I'm going to the beach.
I am a perfectionist: False
I am an only child: False.
I am currently in my pajamas: False.
I am currently pregnant: False.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: False
I am left handed: False.
I am addicted to Blogging: True.
I am online 24/7: False.
I am very shy around the opposite gender: False.
I can be paranoid at times: True.
I currently have a crush on someone: False.
I currently regret something that I have done: False
I enjoy country music: Some.
I enjoy smoothies: True
I enjoy talking on the phone: False
I have a hard time paying attention at school/work: True.
I have a hidden talent: True.
I have a lot to learn: True.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: False.
ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone?
Nope.
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper?
Ram, Vanita, Barkha...and many many more...
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
pillows, cushions,clothes,sand, colour, water, water baloons, ice cream, ink, pencils, pens.
4. Ever had something thrown at you?
pillows, cushions,clothes,sand, colour, water, water baloons, ice cream, ink, pencils, pens and whatever my dad could reach when hed be really really really mad at me.
5. When you’re mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream?
YELL AND SCREAM
EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party for you?
yep
2. Are you easily excited?
yes
3. What are you most excited about?
the smallest things.
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought?
Oh no.
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
A flat back.
SELF-DISCOVERY
1. Name:
Harsha
2. Where were you born?
Sharjah, United Arab Emirates.
3. What’s your main goal in life?
To stop my family from getting me married out of pity.
4. How do you want to die?
List the options.
OPINIONS
1. Sex before marriage?
Nope.
2. Gay Marriage?
no.
3. Lower the Drinking age?
Nah
4. Recycling?
yup.
DREAMS
1. What was your latest dream?
I cheated on him..almost
2. Have any of your dreams come true?
I get Deja Vu all the time...nothing great..just some..scenes..conversations.. but it happens.
3. What was the weirdest dream you’ve ever had?
I get wierd dreams allll the time..I have a new dream story almost everyday.
1. Straight, Gay, Bi?
Straight
2. Do you have a bf/gf?
hmm.. maybe.
3. Do you have a crush?
no
How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
2
What color shirt are you wearing?
Black
Name one thing that you do everyday?
pee
What color are your walls?
right now.. light brown (at work)
How much cash do you have on you right now?
AED 114
I can’t wait till…?
I graduate.
When was the last time you saw your dad?
This morning when he dropped me to work.
What did you have for dinner last night?
A cuppa filter coffee.
What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A spaghetti top from mom
What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
Blogspot, company website
Does anything hurt on your body right now?
nope.
HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Have you ever failed a class?
a subject
2. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd?
Yesssss
3. Have you ever not taken a shower for 3 days?
umm.. sponge bath in bed for 3 weeks. so technically no 'shower' but can be counted as a bath.
4. Have you ever slept with a night light?
yea
5. Have you ever danced in the rain?
so many times!
6. Have you ever lied?
hmm
7. Have you ever had contacts?
yes
8. Have you ever tripped over something stupid?
my brother..
PICK ONE:
1. Samosa, Pakora, Kebab: Kebab (veg pls)
2. Bollywood, Lollywood, Hollywood: Hollywood...none actually
3. Love marriage, Arranged marriage: Any
4. Honeymoon, no moon: Honeymoon.
5. How many kids would u like 1,2, 3+: min 2, max 3
6. Kulfi, Ice cream: Ice Cream
7. Shah ruk khan, Orlando Bloom: Orlando Bloom
8. Meenar-e-Pakistan, Eiffel Tower: Seen neither. Maybe Eiffel Tower cuz I have no Idea what the Meenar - e- Pakistan looks like.
9. Lahore, Khi, Islmbad: Never been to any.. but could settle for Khi - ony if it stands for Karachi
There.. yes Tainted, I did read through yours and even replied to it!
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July 17, 2006
A Pinch of RacismI've always felt a lil guilty about being racist about Kerelites. I thought, maybe its just in
But after reading this, I dont really feel guilty anymore!!
aarrrrghhh.. I've had some good kerelite friends, but somehow...when it comes to workplaces here, you'd think, in a multicultural working atmosphere, it'd be different nationalities against each other, even in a healthy competitive way, but no, it'd be ALL nationalities vs. Mallus! From personal experience and others telling me. for example, Philipinoes, Iranians, Indians, Egyptians, Pakistani, Emirati (they suck up to them actually) vs. Kerelites.
Just go and live in your self acclaimed 'Gods Own Country' and stay there!!
I've got endless stories on why I generally dislike them… but its not uncommon and I'm not going to rant about it here.
Just yesterday, while having breakfast with dad, he was telling me about his keralite friend, who is a kerelite himself and hates all this shit that goes on here. In
Everyone in
And please, the last thing I want is, some mallu coming and justifying themselves/ arguing about this.
I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT!
FYI, I still have a handful of respectful mallu friends, who aren’t like that and am also grateful to one or two particular kerelites for helping me out in my life.
But on a general note, THEY SUCK AND ONLY THINK ABOUT THEMSELVES EVEN IF IT MEANS MAKING SOMEONE ELSE LOOK UGLY!!
Note:
A. Thank you Gwen for the link.
B. Kerelites who want to tell me how great they think they are and wanna list their achievements here are not welcome. Anybody picking on my so called 'cast' and pointing fingers on my people are also not welcome.
Atleast when someone asks me 'Are you Indian?' I don’t say 'No, I'm from Kerela'
July 11, 2006
Shaky Shakira @ FIFA World Cup Final
July 10, 2006
I've seen it all...Being a die-hard ‘Friends' fan that I am, I usually watch the
Likewise, I was watching ‘The One Where Nana Dies Twice’ from Season One, this episode has been aired before on One Tv, but only this time besides cutting all the kissy scenes, everytime someone said ‘gay’, it was dubbed by an unidentifiable word, wouldn’t make sense to someone watching it for the first time.
Maybe if people in
/
High heel sprints in
Very interesting. The spread of Jumeirah Jane-ism is on the rise.
Oh come on! You know how many pains (and gains) it takes to prepare for and participate in a race like that! It has a criteria too! 9cm!!!
July 02, 2006
Child Rape in MumbaiA lot of you/us would have read/heard/been aware about the murder of the 10yr old girl working as domestic help in Mumbai.
You can click on the links above for info on this story.
This whole topic has been talked about alot at home because I have a grandmother who is the guru of all gossip of the community. And yes, this family does hail from the same clan as myself. Though we dont have any direct relations or connections with them, we do hear about them at times. For eg. Rajesh , the primary accused, got engaged recently.
Theres nothing extra that I would know so far than any of the coverage all of this is getting already, except that his sister Roma may be covering up for her brother because he is supposed to get married in December. How smart of a woman to bring home a sister in law to a rapist brother. But then again, if this is the truth or assumptions of the relatives of the family involved, I may not know. My grandmother is the last source of reliability.
The reason I'm putting all of this down here is the thoughts I was having earlier : WHAT IF I HAD TO JUDGE THIS ENTIRE SITUATION.
Should the parents of the little girl be punished, for sending their daughter to work at the age of 10? Should the guy be punished for raping a 10 year old girl? If he DID rape her ie. Should the sister- also now accused - be punished for sticking an aluminium rod up the girl for using her moms make up kit? Should the parents of both be punished, to bring up such adults? (the sister is a mother of 3 herself)
The victim also has a 15 year old sister who works as domestic help in the same building.
If the sister of the accused is proven guilty, will her own children ever near their mother?
"The police are now awaiting the results of DNA fingerprinting and semen tests, currently being conducted on samples found on the victim and those taken from Rajendra and father Vinod."
I ponder : what kind of aluminium rod produces semen?
*I was delaying the post, as usual not trying to bother myself with writing about anything on my blog, but this post by Tainted, motivated me to post it.
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